When I was younger, my favorite past time was to watch people. You could say that I was an odd and imaginative child who made up worlds of her own. I was usually in the company of adults and was left to my own devices. I wasn’t good at socializing with kids I didn’t know so I’d rather be alone and watch them instead. Creepy, isn’t it?
Sometimes, I’d watch the varsity players of various sports train after school. I’d watch them and would be compelled to borrow a ball or a bat and try it myself. Unfortunately, they were wary of the little girl staring at them. It was frustrating not being able to simply see if I could do it. Although, I believe that I learned how. After all, they did drills over and over and the routine ran in my mind faster than they did.
When I became a little older, I started to realize that the extroverts fare better than the introverts in terms of socialization. They were well liked, influential, and more people sided with them. In a small, all-girls school, we all knew each other but what we could try to control was what we knew of each other. Since they were always given social rewards, I tried to act more laidback, cheerful, and hyper. The following year, I was elected as a class officer. Now, I think that the rewards far outweigh the cost of ‘pretending’.